tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7559547175129992372024-03-13T23:14:36.363+08:00Silent Whisperrandom emotions..ahahahai c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.comBlogger66125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-85155279135969620062013-10-29T00:09:00.002+08:002013-10-29T00:09:43.041+08:00missing out and coming back<span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">argh. so many things happened from the last post until now.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">but, i will try to write more on my journey and thoughts, as much as possible.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">lets see:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">- my baby growing up to a hyperactive boy</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">- im getting fatter</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">- wife is not getting fatter</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">- my car is a monster</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">- widened belief system</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;">- a little more clever or knowledgeable.</span>i c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-50478076670523937422012-04-08T05:14:00.002+08:002012-04-08T05:16:00.418+08:00LifeSo much i tried to get a life that i dont get much of a life, or something like that.<br /><br />its much more out there than just rat race yo.i c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-14423937891927019232012-03-21T02:58:00.000+08:002012-03-21T04:56:30.340+08:00Live and Let Live<span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">Im feeling that work place is getting more and more fcuktup. Rules and rules and everything rules. Its getting more like secondary school. Some of them asked, wat fcuk is going on y are we being treated this way?</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: times new roman;">Fcuk i say, those peeps above me said WE, are out of control. So the top doesnt like being flaked, and us dont want get fcuked, u guys better pull up your act and start grow up and be some smart ass.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">D truth, people nowaday dont like to be controlled too much, where it will generate hate and loathsome feeling and resistance towards whatever it is. Fcuk i say, lets join me in Phin's Revolution!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: courier new;">Fcuk i say, when people started to become so farking calculative, they end up dIIIsstrooying EVERy FarKing thing around, i hope they come to theIr farking mind soon. DIfferent generation / position will need to have different thinking? Fuck i say! DOwn to your very fucking core, u r still a human that breath and shit like everyone else.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">Human wasnt 'designed' to be perfect, get real.Its alll thoose little little things that make us human, not necessarily better or worst, but human aint some fucking machine that is programmed for sole purpose, or multi tasking so to speak.</span><br /><br /><div style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-family: verdana;">This filthy rat race is getting to higher speed and wearing me inside out. 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mso-para-margin-left:0in; line-height:115%; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:11.0pt; font-family:"Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-ascii-font-family:Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin;} </style> <![endif]--><i style=""><s><span style="font-size: 9pt; line-height: 115%; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"> Gay</span></s></i> guy friend gave me a fucking 50% of perfection points! There's someone who dont benefits from my effort but acknowledge what i did to keep my world spinning. The rat race had accelerate aging and death, so much that i stubbornly tried to resist by decelerate whenever possible. I enjoy every moment im being crazy and childish, childish as someone which deep in the mental have not grow up. I enjoy pretend to be a 7 year old kid, much more than i enjoy as adult and being serious all the time. I will need all the chance to mellow out, say what you want.<br /><br />So much that i love to be in charge that i hate to be in charge. I've been a taker so much that its time for me to be a giver for the rest of my life. Its karma retribution and something like that. Being a good people, is it justifiable? Reality, bad people triumph and good guy finish last.<br /><br />Sux donkey ball<br /><i style=""><s><span style="font-size: 9pt; line-height: 115%; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"><span style="font-size:100%;"></span></span></s></i></m:defjc></m:rmargin></m:lmargin></m:dispdef></m:smallfrac></div> <!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <o:officedocumentsettings> <o:relyonvml/> <o:allowpng/> </o:OfficeDocumentSettings> </xml><![endif]-->i c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-36049006082076078852012-02-19T01:07:00.002+08:002012-02-19T01:17:26.370+08:00i work out4 1/2 years up here, finally some 'major' exercise. went for some indoor soccer with my staff, only 2 of us, and since the stadium is full, we just have some fun our self, passing and chasing the ball around and trying to dribble etc around. seems like im waaay off the fitness level. <br /><br />Nevertheless had some good time sweating out like a pig, even for 1 hour only. but since i have a initiative to do so, i reckon there are more to come in future.<br /><br />Gain: Satisfaction from eating TomYum bihun, back ache, bruise on kneecap when sliding around.<br />Loss: Mentally some weight, and RM6 for not so good tomyum.<br />Remarks: Must warm up slowly before start!<br /><br />On other hands, 1 of my project is coming closer, stress from work and stress from the environment. i was thinking real hard to learn more knowledge and to get out from this rat race chain. But nothing can be done in haste as planning is most critical.<br /><br />BB almost 3 months old. Notty and adorable. Thanks God and all the protector for this.i c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-44828490864944109422012-01-22T19:49:00.002+08:002012-01-22T19:52:37.421+08:00CNY evemacam hell door been open. another fakadak CNY.<br />1st year pow angpow,double. pow for almost 4 hours only kaw tim. wth!.<br /><br />back to work.i c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-38327374175901372992011-11-04T01:29:00.001+08:002011-11-04T01:29:55.437+08:00?y birds shit on my car?i c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-77383004877418890262011-08-27T20:59:00.002+08:002011-08-27T21:04:49.968+08:00dessertswho is d genius created s.t.r.e.s.s.e.d.s -> d.e.s.s.e.r.t.s? that kind hearted fellow definitely have not experienced it before.
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<br />what i know is the so-called desserts is taking toll on me. somehow realize that the change of watsoever is caused by it and not something else.
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<br />getting tired is part of it?i c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-33537386904927836362011-08-07T03:23:00.000+08:002011-08-07T03:37:12.716+08:00i've prolonged my life, or should i not?How much I wished to be asleep now. Even after taking medicine, I’ve still been denied a good rest. Today I’ve been popped some rather silly questions by them, which either they do not want the answer or I do not have the answer.Felt kind of fucked up as I cant really tell them whats going on, what do I think and how do I felt. It’s a death trap that I felt I’ve maneuvered out. What is the point of answering when its not the objective of the conversation? Feeling threatened, it leads to believing that I doesn’t belong here, anymore.<br /><br />Think deeply, today event had caused me to doubt my next action plan. But how much longer can I stay at such unhealthy environment? Things changed, and I cant no longer speak the truth to them. There is a split of direction, which I know I am not heading the same way. Much of the regret for my wife and J Jr. Somehow I think I’ve failed them. One of the time that I’ve acknowledged my wrong “calculation” and actions. I have no courage to face them. As of today, I feel that my world had crumbled down on me, by my undoing.<br /><br />But anyhow, life still good to me I have loving and supportive family and dear wife. Thank you for your patience and standing up my attitude. Without, im shattered into million pieces.i c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-4408671393327792172011-08-05T04:34:00.000+08:002011-08-05T16:50:19.516+08:00leave the place or leave the world?already hating this place for known and unknown reasons, had no direction and purpose to push on.<br /><br />can someone please bring me home?i c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-34599368519205849542011-07-25T19:43:00.001+08:002011-07-25T19:50:19.332+08:00another happy day indeedNothing more than,just some random guy with fcuked up soul. I had enough of this 'wonderful' moment! I cant use any words to replace the 'happi' experience.<br />Proven again, when shit happens, only your loved will be at your side, not he, not she, not them but family and stuff.. maybe a sign of doomsday, everything is twisted and changing to the dark side.<br /><br />For the sake of them, I will try to collect every broken pieces and hold on as long possible.. there will be hopes if I pushed through hard enough, I believe.<br />Didn’t ask much, just for a simple and happy life.i c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-48681428934121363752011-07-24T22:32:00.002+08:002011-07-24T22:39:53.982+08:00its comingi still have 5 , or maybe a good 6 hours to sleep if i fully utilize it. work and work. come tuesday and 1500hrs, its another chapter ending. <br /><br />come wednesday, im gonna say hello to BB again. plz spread your leg wide wide, let us see your little joystick there =)<br /><br />definately miss my fatty back there.<br /><br />still coughing quite bad, and flu make its return this morning!<br /><br />i got a big plan waiting for realization, project restoration A, and planning for another step. the wilder side of me urging me a "go", while the softer side doing 1+1=6 calculation to fully utilized the momentum of "go".<br /><br />but, please enjoy fully the 112 hours that i need not to work. <-- is it really this short? nya seng ah.i c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-69982915286114181892011-07-20T02:05:00.000+08:002011-07-20T23:04:40.109+08:00bagai melepas batok di tanggaterrible sickness that still lingers for 2 weeks.and for the last 10 days, been coughing,sneezing and having fever that dont seemms to end. worst is coughing, that i felt my lungs or watsoever related internal organs seems to tercabut. even after overdosing super drowzy med etc, the cough still can wake me up.<br /><br />pure awesomeness.. countdown 6 more days to go..<br /><br />Rejoice.i c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-53883898758220416172011-06-24T23:44:00.001+08:002011-06-24T23:44:55.134+08:005th mnth-heavens to the wombDear junior,<br />Hope u r doing awesome in ur pod. Papa gonna finish his work fast and come back earlier for our little talk. I hope u miss me too. Mumy told me that u r in critical condition now. Both us, gong gong po po, wai gong wai po is worry bout u.<br /><br />Today papa spent a lot of energy to sulk and think deeply about u. 153 days suddenly seems very far away. Papa don’t know how to be optimistic with the figure. But to tell u, when I was younger, I like to do the impossible and scale to a higher heights. I hope u have this too, come out and meet us. We r gonna b good buddy. <br /><br />Again, words cant express how much we are anticipating u. Plz b good, no notty notty and counting days for our meeting.<br /><br />~love,papa.i c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-69217234410883402552011-06-24T18:27:00.002+08:002011-06-24T18:41:59.310+08:005th mnth ? update?<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj2IiALh5tMwjnN9lEymG_rmdFDbTumYPIrlixMFTV_8v26nTmIG6o1fZKfrPj0aJJwjLNlbOouwvv2r704ls1mdOYGnUINGS-0EINTNQD3SNVwL_IUYzQu7ZwMO2Sa5RwSZpNz2Y1EmNU/s1600/jfry+jr.png"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 209px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj2IiALh5tMwjnN9lEymG_rmdFDbTumYPIrlixMFTV_8v26nTmIG6o1fZKfrPj0aJJwjLNlbOouwvv2r704ls1mdOYGnUINGS-0EINTNQD3SNVwL_IUYzQu7ZwMO2Sa5RwSZpNz2Y1EmNU/s320/jfry+jr.png" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5621731770965282594" border="0" /></a>
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How r u doing there? I hope u r growing right and healthily, absorbing all things good from mumy. 5 more days, and I will be back from my work, imma bring mumy to doctor and do a scan on her big tummy a.k.a. ur temporary pod, just to say hi and waszup and being able to see you move and stretching thru the screen really makes <s>me </s>us thrilled. Thrilled is totally underrated, <span style=""> </span>whatever the choice of words, know that u r our pride and joy.
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<br />Papa always get SMS and phone call from mumy saying that u r very active and playful, and knowing that, it just<span style=""> </span>makes me want to come back earlier to be at ur mumy side, to feel your movement, to continue stories for u, or maybe sang u some love songs, kiddie songs. I believe that this coming round of check-up, we will be able to determine your gender, and start asking ur aunt MT to call sifu to help think of some great names for u. Mumy always said that papa don’t have enough time to stay with her and preparing for your arrival. “meet and greet” session yah? In fact, papa had a lot plan involving u, that sometimes mumy complained that papa neglected her. Hah.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Today 2.18pm, papa get a SMS from mumy saying that u r not feeling well today. Whole day mood thrown down the window. When papa get back to room, cant stop thinking of u and initiated a quick prayer,I hope it reached the heaven & blessing being channeled to u. Called ur wai po and she said will bring ur mumy to check prior to papa’s home coming. Cant wait anymore, <span style=""> </span>even im eager to see you on screen again. Just hope they come out with good news that you are doing well. Rmbr to give a big thumbs up yah when doctor come and check u up.</p> <p style="text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><o:p>
<br /></o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal">~love,papa</p> </w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:lsdexception></w:latentstyles></xml>i c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-42048173149797244292011-06-09T05:17:00.002+08:002011-06-09T05:33:24.633+08:004month. Updates!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgDhyxqUO6Hn2-81jzSOmDaC1Xat7I02o3UzYhQWqTz6f6G85Xj1HPltrvm6Wz2fDyRNwXXYbS2JI2DOOIWdRcw7dzWb2IZ4oxBoXU6LIsfsf2tCr8I8YHdMu0Swpqtvee5YXnnXdrBPsQ/s1600/IMAG0515.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 282px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgDhyxqUO6Hn2-81jzSOmDaC1Xat7I02o3UzYhQWqTz6f6G85Xj1HPltrvm6Wz2fDyRNwXXYbS2JI2DOOIWdRcw7dzWb2IZ4oxBoXU6LIsfsf2tCr8I8YHdMu0Swpqtvee5YXnnXdrBPsQ/s320/IMAG0515.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5615961688384416530" border="0" /></a>Baby is 4mth old in mumy's tummy. saw the fingers, legs. Faster come november, papa want to see your cute face.<br /><br />and be good, doc said you are sleeping at lower position of the placenta. So mum cant go around coz have to wait you sleep in higher position in mumy's tummy. Today mamy called papa and said can feel that you are doing the footwork for drifting. wait papa come back i sing you better songs and read you stories.<br /><br />papa have to work somewhere so cant accompany you and mumy everyday. i will make up for that soon ok. c u again during next scan and we should start to think a nice + awesome name for u then.<br /><br />~lovei c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-73262521219660653812011-06-01T23:55:00.003+08:002011-06-02T02:58:15.603+08:001 fucked up morningthe above title said it all.<br /><br />sometimes u might wonder how fucked up it can be early in the morning. i tell u its disssssssssss fuckedup. given a scenario as below;<br /><br />~ u phone rang and it shows ur manager calling u when u r off duty / holidays / having ur good sweet time / sleeping / taking a dump and u answer it, only to find out that more problem is en routing. u spent quite some times trying to "fix it remotely", which happens so when u r not in the fucking office, and someone trying to fucked up your day, and take note, my fucking off day and sleeping time. not that i hate my job or my managers, but to be precise, the kanenaubuchaucheebuy-retardedrmarderfacker-$!***porean who makes my day.<br /><br />if u ask me well enuff, 8 out of 10 $!***porean is at least at kanenaubuchaucheebuy-retarderdmarderfacker-level. i hate the 8 in every single effing way. y in the blu hell that they are so proud of themselves being hated all over the world?<br /><br />$!***porean, u r nothing more than me, the guy nex to u , the guy from Indon, or the lady waiting for her maggi goreng at New York, un-fucking-less u r walking with ur lips, eat with ur ears, talk with ur armpit, then shut d fuck up and make urself more "accepted" to the rest of the world.<br /><br />peace & fuck u $!***porean. hahaha.i c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-54333122081162935182011-05-07T23:07:00.001+08:002011-05-08T14:10:30.249+08:00ops:faileddone a few things,but outcome not as expected. i was plagued with sadness hahaha.<div><br /></div><div>and starting a new journey. i felt im far away from parent..</div><div><br /></div><div>crank up and back to work.</div>i c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-59529652749179110622011-04-26T03:56:00.002+08:002011-04-26T04:43:00.001+08:00mata hitamcant sleep.......<br /><br />i hope she will be someone even better, always better than yesterday.<br /><br />and BB cant wait for you to come into this world.. there will be 7 months till we meet, i will prepare for your arrival..<br /><br /><br />today im mounting stress.i c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-16539248339888223612011-04-07T03:07:00.004+08:002011-06-09T05:36:33.302+08:00another step<div><br /></div><div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgHjG8hMD2j5zW36Z7rIbYvtegqBtENxgMoYm6TKMMzGA-4cMRYJ-S3ZnfEi08UnIqRpCay-ROR6iUEOziEi7SQsMW5gnz3m8lSXdfbK1uAnnLgiMR9B2JDCaF1nsIhMqItIZjRWDTMcFA/s1600/IMAG0432.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgHjG8hMD2j5zW36Z7rIbYvtegqBtENxgMoYm6TKMMzGA-4cMRYJ-S3ZnfEi08UnIqRpCay-ROR6iUEOziEi7SQsMW5gnz3m8lSXdfbK1uAnnLgiMR9B2JDCaF1nsIhMqItIZjRWDTMcFA/s320/IMAG0432.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5592572694496417970" border="0" /></a>Dear baby,<br /><br />this is the 1st time where papa and mama saw u. You are very small and fragile and needs alot protection. faster develop and eat more from mama ok.<br /><br />b good and see u soon<br /><br />~love<br /><br /></div>i c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-59969771134264177082010-12-31T03:27:00.001+08:002010-12-31T03:30:12.727+08:00hahacome new year come new promotion come new fun come new stress and come new experience.<br /><br />enjoy.<br /><br />mivec T_Ti c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-62249751138998209012010-12-30T01:19:00.002+08:002010-12-30T01:47:28.868+08:00end of the yearanother day to end of this year.<br /><br />and it brings back the bad memory.. so hard to forget..<br /><br />just hate it much.<br /><br />ground myself in the room.<br /><br />sorry lovei c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-47712743778993608742010-12-04T05:22:00.002+08:002010-12-04T05:45:26.375+08:00kapal terbangre-read miluk mt blog. xpressed her happiness on my happiness. back then i was happy with all d support and positif remarks from famili.<div><br /></div><div>but now i am afraid the truth not as easy as i thought it once was, and i hate to break the mood.</div><div><br /></div><div>is it the promises, the words or the love?</div><div><br /></div><div>pain that i know that i cant bear much longer..</div><div><br /></div><div>how i thought that i was onli depressed and stressed up.</div><div><br /></div><div>now i've discovered that im also having bipolar disorder. its really painful to have to handle this all along and all alone. i hoped she did really pay attenntion to me,stop hurting or provoking me.</div><div><br /></div><div>1 by 1 of my friend left hometown. i am no where to go and no1 to find in future. no more brother-in-arm or partner-in-crime.</div><div><br /></div><div>anyhow just have to stay strong till the end, like i always do.</div><div><br /></div><div>best regards,</div><div>Ping</div>i c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-13077570379428724812010-11-27T18:40:00.000+08:002010-11-28T01:49:07.392+08:00miscombound to happen all the damn time.<br />how to solve this?<br />stand down or going head to head will prove disastrous.<br />now i know.<br />sorry for that. mean it.i c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-8501476791834818612010-11-23T02:11:00.001+08:002010-11-23T23:57:49.860+08:00at where?standing at crossroad of my life... everything seems to be easy as gambling? Big or small? Odd or Even? Yes and no...<br /><br />i am possessive.<br /><br />and i am committing a biggest lie of my life, to myself.<br />**clap clap**<br /><br />sadistic thoughti c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-755954717512999237.post-81094806714471983102010-10-13T05:21:00.003+08:002010-10-13T06:10:00.576+08:009 emperor god celebrationBirthday eve, went to do some prayer and apparently a parade / celebration for 9 Emperor God or Gau Wong Yeh. Happens to be on Saturday nite, which means alot people will be there.<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikjt5HnL1NB4d3I70h4T8_BZcfDzfc5w-S75hCfPSw3RM8kIX_MzXArdBMF4mnsjjoW4r90s38sxIx1CHsaa5Ml7L_t2Yxsi6T6kv44SoQh7B_HZp-ZHUUbal_RAKyb6EkPmzSwAZqwsg/s1600/SDC11741.JPG"><br /></a>Arrive to Tow Boh Keong temple near Jalan Kampar around 11pm, heck its packed of cars and people. Re-group with Bro Seng, waited till 12 when the "fun" starts. A long procession from temple to river bank of Sungai Kinta, where prayers being held.<br /><br />It is belived that they invite gods thru waterway (therefore at river bank) and on the 9th day, they will send the gods back thru the river as well. Back to the procession / parade, there were 3 giant flags poles being balanced by only a guy (they passed it to each other thru-out the journey) which is awesome and those carrying the altar etc. Those people have to "join" the temple and on vegetarian diet for whole week / month and wearing white shirt and long pants, and no shoes.<br /><br />Whole journey was "secured & protected / managed" by RELA team and traffic cops. It felt like we are having a riot or tunjuk perasaan kind of things =D and I usher into 1 year older running around. Arrived home @ 4 but clocked out at 9am. Super stim !!<br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikjt5HnL1NB4d3I70h4T8_BZcfDzfc5w-S75hCfPSw3RM8kIX_MzXArdBMF4mnsjjoW4r90s38sxIx1CHsaa5Ml7L_t2Yxsi6T6kv44SoQh7B_HZp-ZHUUbal_RAKyb6EkPmzSwAZqwsg/s1600/SDC11741.JPG"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 244px; height: 233px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikjt5HnL1NB4d3I70h4T8_BZcfDzfc5w-S75hCfPSw3RM8kIX_MzXArdBMF4mnsjjoW4r90s38sxIx1CHsaa5Ml7L_t2Yxsi6T6kv44SoQh7B_HZp-ZHUUbal_RAKyb6EkPmzSwAZqwsg/s320/SDC11741.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5527280412466457810" border="0" /></a><br />more pics to come soon. slow connections =D<img src="file:///E:/lala/pics/SDC11741.JPG" alt="" />i c Ehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02697466034084974782noreply@blogger.com0