i choose to be with u...

its been some times from the moment when i've blurted out the words that, entangled 2 hearts together. since then, alot things (or i think so) had happen btwn us, be it good and bad stuff. for me its really an eye opener and things were like, Mars and Venus collide together, or how water and oil cant sync. but we still put in effort to make things better for both of us, which means more understanding and a happier relationship =)

the way she can get me smiling from ear to ear, or having enough reason to frown, its just like, "im all yours,would u be mine". and sometimes there are fears where i can give the life that she wanted. we came from 2 different world all together.

that gets me thinking, by the time limit i've set, what am i then? what would i have achieved then, and will i be marrying the girl i love ? im determined to provide a good quality life for my love. and so i need to be more hardworking and start saving =)

btw i hoped that this wont hurt either one of us and for me, and i dont need to look for another to love. i heart my sunshine more than i ever know. for the love i will do whatever i can to keep everything a piece. A heart that loves.

angeL, where are thou?

Later need to go back to work again. Even before arrive back to Frozen Throne, the hatred and refusal already begin to fill itself. This month I need to delay my leave days, but don’t know I can tahan or like it or not. Anyway, I will just pray and make wish as hard as possible that this will be a problem free month and mostly, I have time to spend with my sunshine, or should I say “sun-bathing session”.

On a happier note, I just started a new chapter of life where I met my love and ultimately, be an item. At 1st I am sleeping awake and couldn’t believe that this is so, so wonderful. The good stuff comes in a package, which consist of “relationship” & “promotion to StarWorld”. I couldn’t be that “happy” especially with the latter. God, my darling, parent & close friends knows how I felt all the time.

The only thing that can makes me happy is the time spent together with my sunshine, which for me, always not enough. Some might think at this stage the word “forever” is too early. At this age, “forever” just seems so fragile. Even a married couple could divorce anytime, even after spending 3-40 years together. But I believe that I am good to hold on things that I like.

Few more days, my crazy kaki going to resign and left me here. Not happy at all, cause a good friend is no compensation. The friendship was built by time and luck, which are very very rare materials. Somewhere next month, dad going to Indonesia for working purpose. Sigh. I am to drive myself back or rely on the public transportation then for some times.

Ah… LIFE IS GOOD.

have what it takes?

works....


unfinished stuff from works...

shit u couldnt clean up...


it feels like fakadak to be still alive sometimes, and thinking the working day ahead.






shit will happens then if u know what i mean.


sometimes too tired u just want a rest..


i hate this kind of life....

i just want to be happy...

i couldnt sleep now bcoz she's running on my mind.


anyway, i love my Sing Sing so so much much =)

whats behind my X-fiLe?

this is the story.
and then i think i sux. and then, after extracting some info from the X-file, its time to give up.
screw it, i knew it all along.

lets walk out, i mean,
im going and need to walk out silently.

its so painful.
dig the feeling.
plz, dont.



am i back yet? nightmare and reality, its no difference anymore. pure pain only

a friend in need

today my mum wasnt at home due to some medical stuff, and i need a ride to town, badly. how bad? if i missed it, its either im going to drive myself or face with...termination.

Gee, i wasnt prepared for any of that.

Guest in the end, who i managed to call up?

Its Omstar@Malau *Malau means monkey in CAntonese if u r wondering*

After all this time im doing good and taxi`ing people around, now i get to feel back how it is to be helped or rescued when in need. even now its still 1 hour early, i dont know the Malau able to wake up or not, well its worth to trust at least, should i say my only gamble i can do? anyway,let u all take a peek of his face.

this quite *cough* noob looking face, is few years ago.

and this is now, happily in love...

Well, its time to go. I started to felt sleepy. Damn.I hope Malau able to wake up or i will be all farked up and down.
PeacE.

grounding.

1 month didn’t update already. This duration, a lot of things happened. Lets see. Happy things should be, I get a WeXL voucher because of good service. So with the voucher, im entitled for free meal worth RM30 at some selected outlets. On 8th of October, our group have been selected as the best service group, and so we had our dinner with our AM’s and manager. Its good to have a get-together once in a while. 10th October is my birthday. But on the eve, already im having some friends to accompany me. I never wanted this at 1st, as I would like to have my own time walking around, alone, which is more to my style.

After finished work at 6pm on 9th October, I wanted to take the Skyway but bumped into Casdeny. Among all, she’s the one who accompanied me a lot, and im sure I bored her to the max. Justin and Audrey came later. Overall, am I happy? I don’t know. Friends and family messaged and called me to wish me. But the most daring is, I confessed to a female, I was so nervous and shocked I couldn’t believe myself. The next day, colleagues wished me, and some guest also. Overall it’s a happy day. At night they celebrated my birthday at Be A Star Karaoke. Special guest Tung Yeh also there. Bad timing coz im having a soar throat but since they wanted to, then let it be.

I saw her. My feeling became so mixed up. I felt like leaving the place, but I know I got to carry on. I know that I already grow up. I can control myself. But they all can see that I wasn’t happy. True, I couldn’t enjoy. Anyway, im a loner. I am not used to this kind of situation of celebration with a lot people and being the main man. They sang me birthday songs and we had cake. It was so touching also, im abit speechless. I am happy but couldn’t accurately express it. Whole night I couldn’t sleep after accompanying Tung Yeh.

On 11th , I made a move and to confess to the girl, face to face. It was hell nuts a lot tougher doing that. I was so afraid. Inside, my bones and organ, trembling. My heart beat could have beaten any disco beats. The outcome? Still remain a greatest mystery. Let time become decide the outcome. Well, one burden lifted, another follows. Now, what should and can I do to capture mission objective?


Ok, update about working performance. Overall this month learned quite a lot, and done QUITE a lot mistakes as well. Almost each time I will face different scenario, and I get numerous scolding for being late to submit my report etc. I will just take it as ‘part of learning’. Sometimes, its really de-motivating, with angry superior and not so friendly senior colleague. I don’t know whats the reason I keep going on. Maybe I’ve matured a little.


Whole month, I wasn’t getting enough sleep. And sick for whole month. Thanks to man made haze in the room, the smoke breathing dragons in my room. Needed to talk with guests during soar throat, its like eating some burning charcoal. Beside having a lot of leg muscle spasm, I think I am too stressed from the daily work. For 1 whole week, my sleep were disturbed by things from work; looking for TU2 machine, Manager looking for me, mistaken about the time, and looking for guest passport. Its tiring.


And to end my month, we had training. 4 days. So I got to mix with new colleagues and tried to learn as much as possible. Well I cant cram any shit into my head at the moment. How much I hoped that I wasn’t sick, and then I might able to read some when im off. I know after training, im eligible to get screwed if I didn’t do well. Haha. Too numb to do anything. I couldn’t take my car to service and upgrade. The only things I’ve done, were getting a hair cut and visit grandpa. Too lazy to pack up my stuff to go back.


Peace and love you all readers!!!

overnumb..

cant answer me till the end.
scream without raising voice.


very damn numb,wanted to sleep but cant.its killing me soon i know that.
and it excites me,stimulates me and keeps me going.
hardly feel any shyte...
thank you.
it wasnt awesome.

its scar on melody.
if u know what im saying.....