?

y birds shit on my car?

desserts

who is d genius created s.t.r.e.s.s.e.d.s -> d.e.s.s.e.r.t.s? that kind hearted fellow definitely have not experienced it before.

what i know is the so-called desserts is taking toll on me. somehow realize that the change of watsoever is caused by it and not something else.

getting tired is part of it?

i've prolonged my life, or should i not?

How much I wished to be asleep now. Even after taking medicine, I’ve still been denied a good rest. Today I’ve been popped some rather silly questions by them, which either they do not want the answer or I do not have the answer.Felt kind of fucked up as I cant really tell them whats going on, what do I think and how do I felt. It’s a death trap that I felt I’ve maneuvered out. What is the point of answering when its not the objective of the conversation? Feeling threatened, it leads to believing that I doesn’t belong here, anymore.

Think deeply, today event had caused me to doubt my next action plan. But how much longer can I stay at such unhealthy environment? Things changed, and I cant no longer speak the truth to them. There is a split of direction, which I know I am not heading the same way. Much of the regret for my wife and J Jr. Somehow I think I’ve failed them. One of the time that I’ve acknowledged my wrong “calculation” and actions. I have no courage to face them. As of today, I feel that my world had crumbled down on me, by my undoing.

But anyhow, life still good to me I have loving and supportive family and dear wife. Thank you for your patience and standing up my attitude. Without, im shattered into million pieces.

leave the place or leave the world?

already hating this place for known and unknown reasons, had no direction and purpose to push on.

can someone please bring me home?

another happy day indeed

Nothing more than,just some random guy with fcuked up soul. I had enough of this 'wonderful' moment! I cant use any words to replace the 'happi' experience.
Proven again, when shit happens, only your loved will be at your side, not he, not she, not them but family and stuff.. maybe a sign of doomsday, everything is twisted and changing to the dark side.

For the sake of them, I will try to collect every broken pieces and hold on as long possible.. there will be hopes if I pushed through hard enough, I believe.
Didn’t ask much, just for a simple and happy life.

its coming

i still have 5 , or maybe a good 6 hours to sleep if i fully utilize it. work and work. come tuesday and 1500hrs, its another chapter ending.

come wednesday, im gonna say hello to BB again. plz spread your leg wide wide, let us see your little joystick there =)

definately miss my fatty back there.

still coughing quite bad, and flu make its return this morning!

i got a big plan waiting for realization, project restoration A, and planning for another step. the wilder side of me urging me a "go", while the softer side doing 1+1=6 calculation to fully utilized the momentum of "go".

but, please enjoy fully the 112 hours that i need not to work. <-- is it really this short? nya seng ah.

bagai melepas batok di tangga

terrible sickness that still lingers for 2 weeks.and for the last 10 days, been coughing,sneezing and having fever that dont seemms to end. worst is coughing, that i felt my lungs or watsoever related internal organs seems to tercabut. even after overdosing super drowzy med etc, the cough still can wake me up.

pure awesomeness.. countdown 6 more days to go..

Rejoice.