haha

come new year come new promotion come new fun come new stress and come new experience.

enjoy.

mivec T_T

end of the year

another day to end of this year.

and it brings back the bad memory.. so hard to forget..

just hate it much.

ground myself in the room.

sorry love

kapal terbang

re-read miluk mt blog. xpressed her happiness on my happiness. back then i was happy with all d support and positif remarks from famili.

but now i am afraid the truth not as easy as i thought it once was, and i hate to break the mood.

is it the promises, the words or the love?

pain that i know that i cant bear much longer..

how i thought that i was onli depressed and stressed up.

now i've discovered that im also having bipolar disorder. its really painful to have to handle this all along and all alone. i hoped she did really pay attenntion to me,stop hurting or provoking me.

1 by 1 of my friend left hometown. i am no where to go and no1 to find in future. no more brother-in-arm or partner-in-crime.

anyhow just have to stay strong till the end, like i always do.

best regards,

Ping

miscom

bound to happen all the damn time.
how to solve this?
stand down or going head to head will prove disastrous.
now i know.
sorry for that. mean it.

at where?

standing at crossroad of my life... everything seems to be easy as gambling? Big or small? Odd or Even? Yes and no...

i am possessive.

and i am committing a biggest lie of my life, to myself.
**clap clap**

sadistic thought

9 emperor god celebration

Birthday eve, went to do some prayer and apparently a parade / celebration for 9 Emperor God or Gau Wong Yeh. Happens to be on Saturday nite, which means alot people will be there.

Arrive to Tow Boh Keong temple near Jalan Kampar around 11pm, heck its packed of cars and people. Re-group with Bro Seng, waited till 12 when the "fun" starts. A long procession from temple to river bank of Sungai Kinta, where prayers being held.

It is belived that they invite gods thru waterway (therefore at river bank) and on the 9th day, they will send the gods back thru the river as well. Back to the procession / parade, there were 3 giant flags poles being balanced by only a guy (they passed it to each other thru-out the journey) which is awesome and those carrying the altar etc. Those people have to "join" the temple and on vegetarian diet for whole week / month and wearing white shirt and long pants, and no shoes.

Whole journey was "secured & protected / managed" by RELA team and traffic cops. It felt like we are having a riot or tunjuk perasaan kind of things =D and I usher into 1 year older running around. Arrived home @ 4 but clocked out at 9am. Super stim !!



more pics to come soon. slow connections =D

101010

we have thoughts of tying into 1 on this day. and i thought we are forever.

we have all the plan to lead a good life.. and i hope that i can still hold your hands when i walk after 60 years.. and i still think of you and i am empty...

its time for forget the dream...