ops:failed

done a few things,but outcome not as expected. i was plagued with sadness hahaha.

and starting a new journey. i felt im far away from parent..

crank up and back to work.

mata hitam

cant sleep.......

i hope she will be someone even better, always better than yesterday.

and BB cant wait for you to come into this world.. there will be 7 months till we meet, i will prepare for your arrival..


today im mounting stress.

another step

Dear baby,

this is the 1st time where papa and mama saw u. You are very small and fragile and needs alot protection. faster develop and eat more from mama ok.

b good and see u soon

~love

haha

come new year come new promotion come new fun come new stress and come new experience.

enjoy.

mivec T_T

end of the year

another day to end of this year.

and it brings back the bad memory.. so hard to forget..

just hate it much.

ground myself in the room.

sorry love

kapal terbang

re-read miluk mt blog. xpressed her happiness on my happiness. back then i was happy with all d support and positif remarks from famili.

but now i am afraid the truth not as easy as i thought it once was, and i hate to break the mood.

is it the promises, the words or the love?

pain that i know that i cant bear much longer..

how i thought that i was onli depressed and stressed up.

now i've discovered that im also having bipolar disorder. its really painful to have to handle this all along and all alone. i hoped she did really pay attenntion to me,stop hurting or provoking me.

1 by 1 of my friend left hometown. i am no where to go and no1 to find in future. no more brother-in-arm or partner-in-crime.

anyhow just have to stay strong till the end, like i always do.

best regards,

Ping

miscom

bound to happen all the damn time.
how to solve this?
stand down or going head to head will prove disastrous.
now i know.
sorry for that. mean it.