1 month didn’t update already. This duration, a lot of things happened. Lets see. Happy things should be, I get a WeXL voucher because of good service. So with the voucher, im entitled for free meal worth RM30 at some selected outlets. On 8th of October, our group have been selected as the best service group, and so we had our dinner with our AM’s and manager. Its good to have a get-together once in a while. 10th October is my birthday. But on the eve, already im having some friends to accompany me. I never wanted this at 1st, as I would like to have my own time walking around, alone, which is more to my style.
After finished work at 6pm on 9th October, I wanted to take the Skyway but bumped into Casdeny. Among all, she’s the one who accompanied me a lot, and im sure I bored her to the max. Justin and Audrey came later. Overall, am I happy? I don’t know. Friends and family messaged and called me to wish me. But the most daring is, I confessed to a female, I was so nervous and shocked I couldn’t believe myself. The next day, colleagues wished me, and some guest also. Overall it’s a happy day. At night they celebrated my birthday at Be A Star Karaoke. Special guest Tung Yeh also there. Bad timing coz im having a soar throat but since they wanted to, then let it be.
I saw her. My feeling became so mixed up. I felt like leaving the place, but I know I got to carry on. I know that I already grow up. I can control myself. But they all can see that I wasn’t happy. True, I couldn’t enjoy. Anyway, im a loner. I am not used to this kind of situation of celebration with a lot people and being the main man. They sang me birthday songs and we had cake. It was so touching also, im abit speechless. I am happy but couldn’t accurately express it. Whole night I couldn’t sleep after accompanying Tung Yeh.
On 11th , I made a move and to confess to the girl, face to face. It was hell nuts a lot tougher doing that. I was so afraid. Inside, my bones and organ, trembling. My heart beat could have beaten any disco beats. The outcome? Still remain a greatest mystery. Let time become decide the outcome. Well, one burden lifted, another follows. Now, what should and can I do to capture mission objective?
Ok, update about working performance. Overall this month learned quite a lot, and done QUITE a lot mistakes as well. Almost each time I will face different scenario, and I get numerous scolding for being late to submit my report etc. I will just take it as ‘part of learning’. Sometimes, its really de-motivating, with angry superior and not so friendly senior colleague. I don’t know whats the reason I keep going on. Maybe I’ve matured a little.
Whole month, I wasn’t getting enough sleep. And sick for whole month. Thanks to man made haze in the room, the smoke breathing dragons in my room. Needed to talk with guests during soar throat, its like eating some burning charcoal. Beside having a lot of leg muscle spasm, I think I am too stressed from the daily work. For 1 whole week, my sleep were disturbed by things from work; looking for TU2 machine, Manager looking for me, mistaken about the time, and looking for guest passport. Its tiring.
And to end my month, we had training. 4 days. So I got to mix with new colleagues and tried to learn as much as possible. Well I cant cram any shit into my head at the moment. How much I hoped that I wasn’t sick, and then I might able to read some when im off. I know after training, im eligible to get screwed if I didn’t do well. Haha. Too numb to do anything. I couldn’t take my car to service and upgrade. The only things I’ve done, were getting a hair cut and visit grandpa. Too lazy to pack up my stuff to go back.
Peace and love you all readers!!!
