haha

come new year come new promotion come new fun come new stress and come new experience.

enjoy.

mivec T_T

end of the year

another day to end of this year.

and it brings back the bad memory.. so hard to forget..

just hate it much.

ground myself in the room.

sorry love

kapal terbang

re-read miluk mt blog. xpressed her happiness on my happiness. back then i was happy with all d support and positif remarks from famili.

but now i am afraid the truth not as easy as i thought it once was, and i hate to break the mood.

is it the promises, the words or the love?

pain that i know that i cant bear much longer..

how i thought that i was onli depressed and stressed up.

now i've discovered that im also having bipolar disorder. its really painful to have to handle this all along and all alone. i hoped she did really pay attenntion to me,stop hurting or provoking me.

1 by 1 of my friend left hometown. i am no where to go and no1 to find in future. no more brother-in-arm or partner-in-crime.

anyhow just have to stay strong till the end, like i always do.

best regards,

Ping

miscom

bound to happen all the damn time.
how to solve this?
stand down or going head to head will prove disastrous.
now i know.
sorry for that. mean it.

at where?

standing at crossroad of my life... everything seems to be easy as gambling? Big or small? Odd or Even? Yes and no...

i am possessive.

and i am committing a biggest lie of my life, to myself.
**clap clap**

sadistic thought

9 emperor god celebration

Birthday eve, went to do some prayer and apparently a parade / celebration for 9 Emperor God or Gau Wong Yeh. Happens to be on Saturday nite, which means alot people will be there.

Arrive to Tow Boh Keong temple near Jalan Kampar around 11pm, heck its packed of cars and people. Re-group with Bro Seng, waited till 12 when the "fun" starts. A long procession from temple to river bank of Sungai Kinta, where prayers being held.

It is belived that they invite gods thru waterway (therefore at river bank) and on the 9th day, they will send the gods back thru the river as well. Back to the procession / parade, there were 3 giant flags poles being balanced by only a guy (they passed it to each other thru-out the journey) which is awesome and those carrying the altar etc. Those people have to "join" the temple and on vegetarian diet for whole week / month and wearing white shirt and long pants, and no shoes.

Whole journey was "secured & protected / managed" by RELA team and traffic cops. It felt like we are having a riot or tunjuk perasaan kind of things =D and I usher into 1 year older running around. Arrived home @ 4 but clocked out at 9am. Super stim !!



more pics to come soon. slow connections =D

101010

we have thoughts of tying into 1 on this day. and i thought we are forever.

we have all the plan to lead a good life.. and i hope that i can still hold your hands when i walk after 60 years.. and i still think of you and i am empty...

its time for forget the dream...

sense

remorse, regret, its coming back to me.
believe it or not i still felt the pain every damn night.
you wouldnt know if i am still thinking of you..

and you ppl that try to bring me down, i will stand before your evil scheme.
i will stand tall with my cause.

di

sorry to hurt you and not paying attention.

sorry but i have another "task" to focus.

sorry for all the sadness..

aduh me

clumsy bear @ me.... macam apek.

bought Starcraft 2, Just Cause 2, Singularity and SNiper. Hehe. Can kill some time and getting numb.

Sleepy.

Going back to Genting. Heading to Melaka and Johor this Saturday till Monday.

Mengantuk !!!!

Bag loaded with alot stuff. Damn heavy!

zzz

of stupidity and whatever

you never changed.

i admit i am bad.

are you not then?

wise man will know that shit wont caused by 1 side. 2 will make things happen, or shit happens.

fuck it like i give a damn!

im going to shut off the door!

only you

sorry to have you out from my life..

u wouldnt know how deep is the effect on me..

i hope to get u back some day..

and i hope the someday is today.

~miss u~

updates

been missing for so long, no Internet connection mainly, no free time and just tired.

WEnt back to Ipoh on 11-14 March for Matta Fair with my bos Steven K. Tired but get to learn alot and knew more people. Good thing is we've hit the sales target and the tradeoff is no time to eat, fart, drink and go toilet. And no time to visit others booth as im thinking of grabing some Free and Easy package.

almost had accident as i doozed off for 2 seconds, hahaha. think of it also kan jeong. so its a space van alike (citroen berlingo <-- Google it) with 3 cracks on the windshield, hard clutch pedal and gear sticks, heavy butt, and not so good condition suspension and brake. i dont know its the weight or the FR drivetrain but chucking it into corner 45km/h and above will result in oversteer, another scary thing to mention. ACcomodation was at Tower Regency, near the Greentown business center. Nothing special bout the room, not taht big and grand, but ok lo. and it was so so hot down there. Sweating all my pig oil. the 2nd day during the noon, hall packed with peoples and then the air cond was giving out, or the orginizer shut them. can feel the sweat going thru the butt cleavage.

anyhow, managed to went back safely.

2009 to 2010

slept soundly when everyone around me gathering, watching fireworks.

and then the next day,i slept quite early too. its better than year 09 coz i'm getting lack of sleeps..

anyhow still felt tired. maybe thinking alot things and trying to get d sleeps i've been missing.

so some colleagues resigned on the 1st few days of new year. leaving for alot reasons, but as long they follow the heart calling, i wish them luck and c again in future.

and then Sivaji the Boss praised me in some other way. quite happy. but got pressure.

and then to make decision.

tired.

at work i gets cranky frequently, easily.

its day off,get away from pesky and stupid questions, get to b cool, not pretending, relax , and just winding off.

but i dont get a damn holidays. thinking of business. and getting the deal done.

car is getting old. and im getting sleepy all the time.

so indirectly it means not getting much things done.

cut my pinkie. bleeds alot. thick and red river flows.

and ulcer is hampering my effort to savor foods.

power window broke down.

am too lazy to get it fixed.

just want to get lazy.

>.<

i am a good example