and then ..

It’s the 4th day since we all started our semester break, and it’s the last one for most of us. I still miss every of them. I still felt the loneliness cause I am alone mostly all the time, and a lot time to think this kind of thing. Everyday I think of what to do to kill the time, and for me, sleeping is the best solution coz I cant think anything and time pass by then. Still, there will be some hours in the midnight where I would be awake and wept abit, before continue to sleep. The separation really pain to my ass, for sure. But through pain and separation, I’ve learned to appreciate them. I hope I can treasure every moment in the future when we got to meet again. Each time I play DotA or CS, my memories with my gang will come back, and also when I’m listening to certain songs. T_T

I always tell myself to stop crying and thinking about the sad things, and look forward to the future, things I need to do and make life wonderful and meaningful everyday. Hard, but I must learn to. I still got around 13 days to hang around before going for training at Penang.
Training should be the ending of my current chapter, and after graduation, perhaps I am working then, that will be my life new chapter.

Before this a senior told me that she will choose to continue studies after training coz she miss studying and friends etc. At that time I dismissed that coz I am bored with examination and assignments, frustration towards people around me. When its almost my time to finish studying, its my turn to felt so. When I left my primary&secondary school, I never wept of felt sad, coz I hate that a lot. But Kampar and TAR College, its totally different.

But when I think of going back time so I can change something, enjoy something or whatever thing, I will remember that Kitou Aya from “1 Liter of Tears” at 1st also had the same thought, but at last she able to accept it and continue to live on without thinking about going back. I should think the same way also, even deep inside had some feeling of regret.

Thanks for the wonderful and sad memories, knowledge and advises that you all gave me.

DFS- KuanYee,Mang How,Chucky,Stanley,Kevin,Chee Lai,Tambi,Ah Wai,Weng Leong,Bin Jau,Li Ling, LuLu,Ah Guan, Siao Ying,Wei Bin,Kah Yan,Li Peng,Chee Kong,Lu Ting,Ah Hock,Andrew,Eileen,Ah Bao,Jin Thien,Sann Pinn, lastly icE ^^ Some I might less talk with them but that doesn’t mean that u being left out. I remember everyone deeply!

DHT2-BJ,Andy,Loon,Kit,Kent,Johny,Kevin,Rick. These few people particularly leave a lot memories inside me, I mix with them more. And then it would be those that I get to know also; Rachel,regina,erin,danise,jingyii,marcus,suet jee,yin phing,zhen yen,wai wai,wy gynn,Jeffrey. Some name I might left out coz my memories sux, sorri k? even we different class but still we get to mix together,peace and love u all.

Kani Inc. – This group is co-founded by me and ah wai at 1st semester. We are the vanguard team, we go here and there to do funny stuff together. U can find me,ah wai,Edwin,Kevin ong,rick,tambi,Kevin lee walk around and do stuffs together.funny.shared a lot crap stuff.

-=]Myth[=- consist of icE@me,skyheart@loon,fucktak@kit,abu@chee lai,Johny@johny,Meow Jiu@Kent,BJ,Ah Bao,Tambi. We pwned a lot ppl together especially sem 2.im happy during that time,and also till now. When meet again must pwn ppl kaw kaw,k?will there still be champion leader? =]

Rockstar Studio – this place is cool, I’ve learn a lot things about music here, even I cant play them ^^ Im introduced to a lot kind of music, and I like them also. There, I tied my relationship with another group of friends; Ah Loong,Ah Fan,Tungyeh,Mel,Kevin&Stanley.ya all play great music and i like them much ^^

Kakimoto Racing,N Gen 2, SocketHead – it’s the car team stuff, where I get to know a lot people that had some interest and I get knowledge about cars from some of them and then share it with other.

My juniors – not ordinary but good friends, Daph,Soon,Steph,John, and some else that I cant remember the name.Sorry again.

And then other students and people that I get to know for this 2 years, too much till I cant list down them, but I keep u all in my heart all the time, coz u all shaped my heart,fills my mind and helped me grow. Thanks for everything.

My total regret- Move out and didn’t stay in contact with my friends, till now its haunting me, especially my bro;BJ. Sorry k? love u much !!

Finally to the girl that I had liked so much, but didn’t like me back, I will still remember you, coz im crazy over you.hehe

THIS IS AN IMPORTANT NOTE!!
Those friends that read this, plz do sms or call me la. Me everyday very boring and no mood.
Whoever else also, come and “yo” me la. Don’t have my number? Send me a message and I will let you know ^.^ Even u r not from the list, or from KTAR also nvm, most important is “yo” me !!!my hp is very silent lately .


~i c E @ KP~

why r u sad?

Today is really a sad day. Since week 14 till now, most of the day I am not so happy, cause in my mind, there is something bugging, that is the thought about what will happen after exam. Everyone leaving Kampar, especially from hospitality management, where we will undergo industrial training at different hotels and resorts, and at different department. Yesterday night after Johny birthday bbq, some of us from DFS that is me, Chee Lai, Kevin Lee, Omega Thumbsie. All them are from DHT. After the cake cutting ceremony, where almost all pictures taking and stuff had ended, those remaining gather around and start to talk, and finally it becomes like individual speech from everyone there. Starting from Andy , BJ and so on, everyone gave some words to each other, comments, voice out dissatisfaction and talk a lot sad stuff, the situation very touching especially where the girls started to weep. Even I am not from their class, but the speeches are very touching, I also almost cried. Its too long to be stated here, so I just let it be at my heart and mind and also to all present there. After DHT2 classmates finished their speeches, they gave us the chance to talk also. Chee Lai said that im good, even im not sure in what sense. But its good that someone said so, and appreciate me. When its my turn, I didn’t talk so much and in detail cause I am not prepared and don’t know what to talk. But after that I got a lot things that I wanted to tell them all.
You all, should know who I am mentioning, that’s all of you, all leave me a good and deep memories, I cant let go of it, and it makes me sad. Everyone is so good, friendly and funny. I came to Kampar without knowing anyone, and making friend with all strangers is different. Each taught me a lot things that, helped me always, I was damn happy. CS and DotA bring us all together. Those glory time, really happy together.
Today when I sent Ah Tung, Andy, Tambi to bus station, I was really sad, when Tambi hugged me, when Ah Tung said want to wait until I drive away 1st, and when BJ told me he is about to go. I rushed to meet him but he already gone. I was damn sad. BJ, the one that treat me good and like brother, share my problems and stuffs, help me in finding songs, he is definitely my happy fruit. We getting close during when he moved to beside my old place. I always drop by to their place and especially his room to lepak and talk stuff. Our contact lessen when I moved out. I’m sad. Really a lot I wanted to tell you. Like Tungyeh, I’ve already listen to your voice and singing for 2 semester, when I watch the video "You Are The 1", I saw all the faces that I miss, im really sad also. Time had passed, only regret left.
Today really heart broken. Cause I know, after this, we are only left as memories. Really hate to accept this. Really hope friends can remain forever, especially all those that treat me so good. Today cried like a baby. Eyes very painful and tired already. Face also pain coz the tears is salty ><> think of to write, but unable to continue much. Got to rest soon. Lack of sleep. Good nite and I love you all. Even some I might didn’t mention, but that doesn’t means that ya all didn’t get a place in my heart, just it will be a novel if I continue to write.

so cham start to sick already ><