a friend in need

today my mum wasnt at home due to some medical stuff, and i need a ride to town, badly. how bad? if i missed it, its either im going to drive myself or face with...termination.

Gee, i wasnt prepared for any of that.

Guest in the end, who i managed to call up?

Its Omstar@Malau *Malau means monkey in CAntonese if u r wondering*

After all this time im doing good and taxi`ing people around, now i get to feel back how it is to be helped or rescued when in need. even now its still 1 hour early, i dont know the Malau able to wake up or not, well its worth to trust at least, should i say my only gamble i can do? anyway,let u all take a peek of his face.

this quite *cough* noob looking face, is few years ago.

and this is now, happily in love...

Well, its time to go. I started to felt sleepy. Damn.I hope Malau able to wake up or i will be all farked up and down.
PeacE.

grounding.

1 month didn’t update already. This duration, a lot of things happened. Lets see. Happy things should be, I get a WeXL voucher because of good service. So with the voucher, im entitled for free meal worth RM30 at some selected outlets. On 8th of October, our group have been selected as the best service group, and so we had our dinner with our AM’s and manager. Its good to have a get-together once in a while. 10th October is my birthday. But on the eve, already im having some friends to accompany me. I never wanted this at 1st, as I would like to have my own time walking around, alone, which is more to my style.

After finished work at 6pm on 9th October, I wanted to take the Skyway but bumped into Casdeny. Among all, she’s the one who accompanied me a lot, and im sure I bored her to the max. Justin and Audrey came later. Overall, am I happy? I don’t know. Friends and family messaged and called me to wish me. But the most daring is, I confessed to a female, I was so nervous and shocked I couldn’t believe myself. The next day, colleagues wished me, and some guest also. Overall it’s a happy day. At night they celebrated my birthday at Be A Star Karaoke. Special guest Tung Yeh also there. Bad timing coz im having a soar throat but since they wanted to, then let it be.

I saw her. My feeling became so mixed up. I felt like leaving the place, but I know I got to carry on. I know that I already grow up. I can control myself. But they all can see that I wasn’t happy. True, I couldn’t enjoy. Anyway, im a loner. I am not used to this kind of situation of celebration with a lot people and being the main man. They sang me birthday songs and we had cake. It was so touching also, im abit speechless. I am happy but couldn’t accurately express it. Whole night I couldn’t sleep after accompanying Tung Yeh.

On 11th , I made a move and to confess to the girl, face to face. It was hell nuts a lot tougher doing that. I was so afraid. Inside, my bones and organ, trembling. My heart beat could have beaten any disco beats. The outcome? Still remain a greatest mystery. Let time become decide the outcome. Well, one burden lifted, another follows. Now, what should and can I do to capture mission objective?


Ok, update about working performance. Overall this month learned quite a lot, and done QUITE a lot mistakes as well. Almost each time I will face different scenario, and I get numerous scolding for being late to submit my report etc. I will just take it as ‘part of learning’. Sometimes, its really de-motivating, with angry superior and not so friendly senior colleague. I don’t know whats the reason I keep going on. Maybe I’ve matured a little.


Whole month, I wasn’t getting enough sleep. And sick for whole month. Thanks to man made haze in the room, the smoke breathing dragons in my room. Needed to talk with guests during soar throat, its like eating some burning charcoal. Beside having a lot of leg muscle spasm, I think I am too stressed from the daily work. For 1 whole week, my sleep were disturbed by things from work; looking for TU2 machine, Manager looking for me, mistaken about the time, and looking for guest passport. Its tiring.


And to end my month, we had training. 4 days. So I got to mix with new colleagues and tried to learn as much as possible. Well I cant cram any shit into my head at the moment. How much I hoped that I wasn’t sick, and then I might able to read some when im off. I know after training, im eligible to get screwed if I didn’t do well. Haha. Too numb to do anything. I couldn’t take my car to service and upgrade. The only things I’ve done, were getting a hair cut and visit grandpa. Too lazy to pack up my stuff to go back.


Peace and love you all readers!!!

overnumb..

cant answer me till the end.
scream without raising voice.


very damn numb,wanted to sleep but cant.its killing me soon i know that.
and it excites me,stimulates me and keeps me going.
hardly feel any shyte...
thank you.
it wasnt awesome.

its scar on melody.
if u know what im saying.....

clown

Am i a clown ?
I dont want to be 1.
But if u think i am,
I rather be a happy,
Than a sad and lonely clown,
My life's a joke,sometimes,
And I always wanted it to be a happy one,
So i will be happy always,
Having fun as long im alive.

I believe the are always cloud up in the sky,
For they will provide shade from sunray for a moment,
Just a moment, pleasure in disguise,
Whats more beautiful than this view?

~I'll be fine,when I'm loving you~

this is what, and not whats that.

this is wat bro SS answered me when i asked him to choose wether we work for money or interest.well i said that, at this moment, i would go for money.this is wat he said;

~ well, you need money to survive.you can be a casino marketing for a year or 2, but do you picture urself doing this for the rest of ur life? If you want to be sucessful, you have to have the passion in your job. if you like the casino job, then go for it. money is a by product of ur sucess.
Money is not the main product. no one will be statisfy with money. But people can be statisfy by a working on a job which they like~

fcuk, how can i possibly forget about this? but sadly $$$ is what that poisoned my pure mind and soul at 1st. but, some did answered me, how do u survive without $$$? with $$$ u can do alot things, when u got enough $$$, u can back to interest. yes, both have correct point.

Bcoz both have correct point, i dont know which 1 to choose. Eventually time is running out. Im afraid of wrong decision. the human greed is always there. i think its ok to save some $$$ and back to the interest some other time. what you think?

graduation. InvasioN!!

<-- group photo

last Saturday is my convocation. finally after 2 years, which for me personally its not that short or long, but im sure i do enjoy studying at college. ok so that day, happy and sad, both feeling mix together. the world was spinning slowly when i look around, looking everyone face. Happy because can graduate but sad because im leaving all this ?

                           

my emotion on that time can be suited with the song," Leaving on JetPlane".. there was alot meaning in this song, for example, leaving some1 we love. headache.. when i listen to this songs, i will remember few people,namely eiLeen. she loves this song so much.

quite some times didnt work, or play in the kitchen already. the interest start to drift. passion begin to fade. i dont know which way i should go ...

however, there is the last gamble to enter back the line.. luck, be with me.

p/s: lynny, i really wanted to get u choco but i abit bz. sori ok

am i really that bad?

These few days involved in some heavy drinking. Before this most recent experience, I used to drink and get drunk and get high and forget, sleep and then wake up. On Friday it was Tiger and Royal Stout.

So I just getting a little high and overdid it abit, and found myself still unable to sleep until 6am. Sigh. First time drinking alone till get drunk. Usually 1st bottle is more than enough and its too bored.

Skip to Saturday night, where the serious drinking was. Beer, red wine, some V.S.O.P and I had gone wild at the dinner, and 2nd round at the bride’s house. I was fucking drunk but I still can talk and act normally. Almost throw up but control, but I didn’t dare to drive luckily cousin bro with me. I cant remember much of the conversation I had with anyone there. But I remember I do crap about marketing stuff and taunting some direct sales company with my godmother’s son. I put up a good show there by gulping down every single beverage over there that contains alcohol.

Challenging part is, I manage to drive home safely. What I remembered is some guy, don’t know he was drunk or what, tried to stop me, flagging me to stop, but I was too drunk and luckily I didn’t ran over him.

Another challenge is to drive uphill which I manage to do well. when I arrived in front of home, don’t know why I start calling people in my contacts, but damn, none answer me. It wasn’t that late considering that time only around 1240 am. And don’t know how long inside the car, what I realize is next I was sweating heavily, and I managed to muster strength walk out and swing into bed. When I woke up at 4am, I felt extremely bad. I couldn’t sleep but the alcohol effect still kicking in.

It feels like dengue all over again. This time, not only I unable to get drunk and sleep well, forgetting everything but instead feeling the pain.

I realize I couldn’t escape the pain and reality.