why r u sad?

Today is really a sad day. Since week 14 till now, most of the day I am not so happy, cause in my mind, there is something bugging, that is the thought about what will happen after exam. Everyone leaving Kampar, especially from hospitality management, where we will undergo industrial training at different hotels and resorts, and at different department. Yesterday night after Johny birthday bbq, some of us from DFS that is me, Chee Lai, Kevin Lee, Omega Thumbsie. All them are from DHT. After the cake cutting ceremony, where almost all pictures taking and stuff had ended, those remaining gather around and start to talk, and finally it becomes like individual speech from everyone there. Starting from Andy , BJ and so on, everyone gave some words to each other, comments, voice out dissatisfaction and talk a lot sad stuff, the situation very touching especially where the girls started to weep. Even I am not from their class, but the speeches are very touching, I also almost cried. Its too long to be stated here, so I just let it be at my heart and mind and also to all present there. After DHT2 classmates finished their speeches, they gave us the chance to talk also. Chee Lai said that im good, even im not sure in what sense. But its good that someone said so, and appreciate me. When its my turn, I didn’t talk so much and in detail cause I am not prepared and don’t know what to talk. But after that I got a lot things that I wanted to tell them all.
You all, should know who I am mentioning, that’s all of you, all leave me a good and deep memories, I cant let go of it, and it makes me sad. Everyone is so good, friendly and funny. I came to Kampar without knowing anyone, and making friend with all strangers is different. Each taught me a lot things that, helped me always, I was damn happy. CS and DotA bring us all together. Those glory time, really happy together.
Today when I sent Ah Tung, Andy, Tambi to bus station, I was really sad, when Tambi hugged me, when Ah Tung said want to wait until I drive away 1st, and when BJ told me he is about to go. I rushed to meet him but he already gone. I was damn sad. BJ, the one that treat me good and like brother, share my problems and stuffs, help me in finding songs, he is definitely my happy fruit. We getting close during when he moved to beside my old place. I always drop by to their place and especially his room to lepak and talk stuff. Our contact lessen when I moved out. I’m sad. Really a lot I wanted to tell you. Like Tungyeh, I’ve already listen to your voice and singing for 2 semester, when I watch the video "You Are The 1", I saw all the faces that I miss, im really sad also. Time had passed, only regret left.
Today really heart broken. Cause I know, after this, we are only left as memories. Really hate to accept this. Really hope friends can remain forever, especially all those that treat me so good. Today cried like a baby. Eyes very painful and tired already. Face also pain coz the tears is salty ><> think of to write, but unable to continue much. Got to rest soon. Lack of sleep. Good nite and I love you all. Even some I might didn’t mention, but that doesn’t means that ya all didn’t get a place in my heart, just it will be a novel if I continue to write.

so cham start to sick already ><