A for apple?

So, no choice but to wake up. Tired as usual so both of us late abit, skipped those bath and stuff, coz its 7.35am d. Arrived there on time la. Today for my station, only me and Ian. He was quite busy as he need to take care the front line and teach me as well. I can feel how he felt, coz I’ve been in that position before. By the way, the storage, chiller and freezer and preparation area quite small, so when all those stocks arrived, and no 1 to clear them, the whole place become damn packed. And then no place to move, and when I want to take things also become a problem.

Damn. I hate this. Ok and then there was funny gay thing, that is when u get an order from the waiter/waitress etc, instead of ok or I get it, u got to say TQ. Err. TQ for what? Noob la. When I was checking how to do some orders, I just realize that its way too easy, and u can finish 1 order in less than 10 steps. Effortless. Same goes with mise en place. Get the preparation card and gather the ready-mix ingredient and then mix together with ur chicken or beef etc. Ta daaa. Kaw tim. I feel like a retarded chef from kindergarten. LoL. U don’t get to custom made orders, decoration stuff and even cutting vegetables also uses machine. I know every1 wanted to make it fast, but all this wasn’t what I looking for. No more standing in front and talk with guests, cook in front them etc but bound to the gay work and gay rules. Even I’ve learned every single thing in the kitchen, what else then? I might just be another "somebody" at Chili’s. Only at Chili. The job is far from a chef job.

Today is 2nd day ady. I’ve tried to love the job, but I guess I failed. I felt so stressed. My heart wasn’t at Chili or with me. I know I don’t like this, but I forced myself to carry on at least for 1 month. And then I set back to 2 weeks only. Sigh. Around 9 something went to eat. In the room, I’m too tired d. trying to sleep. But on my mind, its turning fast, thinking hard. Im having some serious self conflict. I talk with Kevin.

Finally after some discussion and decision making, I’ve decided that I cant force myself to take another day at the place that I don’t like, at all. I’ve never felt like this before. Even I don’t like, but I still can carry on but this time, I just give up. After announcing the answer to Kevin, I felt relieved and alive again. Sleep happily then. Wake up around 8, but continue to sleep back. No phuck.