Friday, November 4, 2011
Saturday, August 27, 2011
desserts
what i know is the so-called desserts is taking toll on me. somehow realize that the change of watsoever is caused by it and not something else.
getting tired is part of it?
Sunday, August 7, 2011
i've prolonged my life, or should i not?
Think deeply, today event had caused me to doubt my next action plan. But how much longer can I stay at such unhealthy environment? Things changed, and I cant no longer speak the truth to them. There is a split of direction, which I know I am not heading the same way. Much of the regret for my wife and J Jr. Somehow I think I’ve failed them. One of the time that I’ve acknowledged my wrong “calculation” and actions. I have no courage to face them. As of today, I feel that my world had crumbled down on me, by my undoing.
But anyhow, life still good to me I have loving and supportive family and dear wife. Thank you for your patience and standing up my attitude. Without, im shattered into million pieces.
Friday, August 5, 2011
leave the place or leave the world?
can someone please bring me home?
Monday, July 25, 2011
another happy day indeed
Proven again, when shit happens, only your loved will be at your side, not he, not she, not them but family and stuff.. maybe a sign of doomsday, everything is twisted and changing to the dark side.
For the sake of them, I will try to collect every broken pieces and hold on as long possible.. there will be hopes if I pushed through hard enough, I believe.
Didn’t ask much, just for a simple and happy life.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
its coming
come wednesday, im gonna say hello to BB again. plz spread your leg wide wide, let us see your little joystick there =)
definately miss my fatty back there.
still coughing quite bad, and flu make its return this morning!
i got a big plan waiting for realization, project restoration A, and planning for another step. the wilder side of me urging me a "go", while the softer side doing 1+1=6 calculation to fully utilized the momentum of "go".
but, please enjoy fully the 112 hours that i need not to work. <-- is it really this short? nya seng ah.
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
bagai melepas batok di tangga
pure awesomeness.. countdown 6 more days to go..
Rejoice.
Friday, June 24, 2011
5th mnth-heavens to the womb
Hope u r doing awesome in ur pod. Papa gonna finish his work fast and come back earlier for our little talk. I hope u miss me too. Mumy told me that u r in critical condition now. Both us, gong gong po po, wai gong wai po is worry bout u.
Today papa spent a lot of energy to sulk and think deeply about u. 153 days suddenly seems very far away. Papa don’t know how to be optimistic with the figure. But to tell u, when I was younger, I like to do the impossible and scale to a higher heights. I hope u have this too, come out and meet us. We r gonna b good buddy.
Again, words cant express how much we are anticipating u. Plz b good, no notty notty and counting days for our meeting.
~love,papa.
5th mnth ? update?
Dear junior,
Hello. How r u doing there? I hope u r growing right and healthily, absorbing all things good from mumy. 5 more days, and I will be back from my work, imma bring mumy to doctor and do a scan on her big tummy a.k.a. ur temporary pod, just to say hi and waszup and being able to see you move and stretching thru the screen really makes me us thrilled. Thrilled is totally underrated, whatever the choice of words, know that u r our pride and joy.
Papa always get SMS and phone call from mumy saying that u r very active and playful, and knowing that, it just makes me want to come back earlier to be at ur mumy side, to feel your movement, to continue stories for u, or maybe sang u some love songs, kiddie songs. I believe that this coming round of check-up, we will be able to determine your gender, and start asking ur aunt MT to call sifu to help think of some great names for u. Mumy always said that papa don’t have enough time to stay with her and preparing for your arrival. “meet and greet” session yah? In fact, papa had a lot plan involving u, that sometimes mumy complained that papa neglected her. Hah.
Today 2.18pm, papa get a SMS from mumy saying that u r not feeling well today. Whole day mood thrown down the window. When papa get back to room, cant stop thinking of u and initiated a quick prayer,I hope it reached the heaven & blessing being channeled to u. Called ur wai po and she said will bring ur mumy to check prior to papa’s home coming. Cant wait anymore, even im eager to see you on screen again. Just hope they come out with good news that you are doing well. Rmbr to give a big thumbs up yah when doctor come and check u up.
~love,papa
Thursday, June 9, 2011
4month. Updates!
and be good, doc said you are sleeping at lower position of the placenta. So mum cant go around coz have to wait you sleep in higher position in mumy's tummy. Today mamy called papa and said can feel that you are doing the footwork for drifting. wait papa come back i sing you better songs and read you stories.
papa have to work somewhere so cant accompany you and mumy everyday. i will make up for that soon ok. c u again during next scan and we should start to think a nice + awesome name for u then.
~love
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
1 fucked up morning
sometimes u might wonder how fucked up it can be early in the morning. i tell u its disssssssssss fuckedup. given a scenario as below;
~ u phone rang and it shows ur manager calling u when u r off duty / holidays / having ur good sweet time / sleeping / taking a dump and u answer it, only to find out that more problem is en routing. u spent quite some times trying to "fix it remotely", which happens so when u r not in the fucking office, and someone trying to fucked up your day, and take note, my fucking off day and sleeping time. not that i hate my job or my managers, but to be precise, the kanenaubuchaucheebuy-retardedrmarderfacker-$!***porean who makes my day.
if u ask me well enuff, 8 out of 10 $!***porean is at least at kanenaubuchaucheebuy-retarderdmarderfacker-level. i hate the 8 in every single effing way. y in the blu hell that they are so proud of themselves being hated all over the world?
$!***porean, u r nothing more than me, the guy nex to u , the guy from Indon, or the lady waiting for her maggi goreng at New York, un-fucking-less u r walking with ur lips, eat with ur ears, talk with ur armpit, then shut d fuck up and make urself more "accepted" to the rest of the world.
peace & fuck u $!***porean. hahaha.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
ops:failed
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
mata hitam
i hope she will be someone even better, always better than yesterday.
and BB cant wait for you to come into this world.. there will be 7 months till we meet, i will prepare for your arrival..
today im mounting stress.